What is my purpose?

Hi All

I saw this quote and I started thinking, (my husband says I think too much). "You are here to enable the divine purpose of the universe to unfold. That is how important you are!" ~Eckhart Tolle

One problem, I do not know what my purpose is, yet.

I know I want to help people but how? I know I want to give back and I do, by helping out at church and working in a school.  I have said many times that I wish I had a passion, and if only that passion was linked to my life purpose everything would fall into place.

I have been through so much and a number of very successful people have overcome adversity of some kind and helped thousands of people if not millions. I am reading Jack Canfields Chicken Soup for the Soul and it's full of stories of real people who have inspired others to do, be and have everything they want. It''s an awesome book and well worth the time it takes to read it.

Oh by the way I learnt something recently about myself and it's this. I am not and have never been a failure. What I am is a quitter. When things get tough I quit. I have never stuck with anything long enough to even risk failing. Instead I give up and walk away, it's been easier for me to quit than to risk failing.

The only problem with quitting is you never see the end result. I get really annoyed when celebrity role-models are idolised for drug abuse and other addictions. I always wonder what lessons our children are learning from them. Why then have I allowed my children to witness that I cannot see a project through to the end?

It's the same old double-standard at work isn't it? So today I am quitting for the last time. I am quitting being a quitter. I am going to re-read all my books and listen to all my CD's and I am going to talk the talk and walk the walk of someone who succeeds at whatever she does. I am going to risk failure rather than be a parent who shows her children that when the going gets tough, it's okay to walk away.

Having said that though I must admit my beautiful children are so resilient and have never shied away from a challenge. I know that by breaking this bad habit, I can only be a better parent, and saying that maybe my life purpose is only to ensure these two amazing souls achieve all their dreams and goals. But hey I am not about to quit trying to find out if this my only purpose in life.

So watch this space...

In love and light
Tracey