I know that sometimes what I believe can seem a little dodgy and mixed up, but there is something I gain from going to a Christian church and being active within that church. As you may well know for over two months I have been suffering from recurring bronchitis. Essentially I have had pneumonia. I saw a new doctor and after two weeks of "rest" and antibiotics, the lung is now finally clear. I feel better than I have felt in a very long time and am actually looking forward to going back to work tomorrow because I know that I will cope with a bunch of 9 year olds better than I have for a while. Anyway, todays message was about our worries, the burdens we carry. In my writing I refer to this as baggage.
Last night I had trouble sleeping and often when I can't sleep I remember all those people who have (to my mind) done me wrong, I lay awake for the thousandth time wondering what I would do if I ever got revenge. It's silly because I am the one loosing sleep, not them. So lo and behold I am stunned that the message in church today is aimed directly at me (not for the first time mind you).
Lay your burdens down, release them to me and rest. Rest and release my worries, this was the message I got from my doctor, I listened and I am cured. Surely then by the very virtue of my faith I should listen to God and lay my burdens down, if my Dr. can make me feel this good in two weeks and she a mere mortal, imagine how fabulous I can feel and what I can accomplish in releasing my burdens to our Creator.
Today's message was also very intimate based on the fact that our minister is swapping places with a minister from Christchurch, he said that he has been asked if he if afraid to go given the recent earthquakes, his answer he said was no, because he believes that he is going to be exactly where God needs him to be and perhaps it is an opportunity for that minister to come to us and rest. Lay his burdens down, put their worries and fears into the hands of Jesus, I guess that with all my searching it is this kind of faith that I am looking for. I want to be able to believe so wholeheartedly in something that I can lay my burdens down and rest knowing that I am safe secure in the hands of our Creator.
In light and love.
Sunday, 27 February 2011
Wednesday, 23 February 2011
Day 22 Month 2 - Thoughts and Prayers for Family and Friends
It is with great sorrow and relief that I write today. The Earthquakes in New Zealand have now eventually caused death and a number of people are waiting to be resuced from the rubble. Thank goodness my immediate family are in Aukland and on the other island. Unfortunately Rob's cousin Lara and her daughter are stuck in the thick of it. Lara managed to escape from her office and set to work helping to free a family from their second floor flat which was according to Lara is now a 1st floor flat. She is home today with her daughter and describes herself as scared.
Now this is a women who, like all great women, refuses to be a victim and takes control of her life. So for her to say that she is frightened certainly makes the magnitude of the event clear to me.
Even on the South Island the emotional distress is evident in FB status' and comments. So please join me in lighting a candle and praying that there will be fewer fatalies than expected and that in the very least all those missing will be found. If nothing else to bring those families some closure. Let us also pray for the country to have speedy recovery from the disaster. I will also be praying for all the people there and arriving to help rescue people from the rubble. I just simply believe that at times like these collective power of prayer brings resolution. So as I said prayer is now the MOST we can do and definately not the least we can do.
In light and love
Now this is a women who, like all great women, refuses to be a victim and takes control of her life. So for her to say that she is frightened certainly makes the magnitude of the event clear to me.
Even on the South Island the emotional distress is evident in FB status' and comments. So please join me in lighting a candle and praying that there will be fewer fatalies than expected and that in the very least all those missing will be found. If nothing else to bring those families some closure. Let us also pray for the country to have speedy recovery from the disaster. I will also be praying for all the people there and arriving to help rescue people from the rubble. I just simply believe that at times like these collective power of prayer brings resolution. So as I said prayer is now the MOST we can do and definately not the least we can do.
In light and love
Tuesday, 22 February 2011
Day 22 Month 2 - Is there no doubt?
Last night I invited my best friend for dinner with her family, it's convenient because her middle son is K's best friend, actually this family has become like my family since all my family is in SA. We got to talking about religion as we all very active within our church.
When asked what I believe in, I had to admit some of what I believe is not what is taught in the mainstream, and may offend a few people. However we discussed things like faith, intuition, angels etc.
I have a great affinity with angels and use their guidance regularly, I do this using angel cards. These are used more as a prompt for me to give you assistance. The reason for this is obvious, I do not have enough faith in myself, and it was this message that I got from my friends, they too struggle with what is considered correct in religion. I brought out my cards and had I transfer his energy into the cards, touching them shuffling them etc, then I said that I believe we are all intuitive and have learned to ignore or discount those "gut" feelings. I got him to put out three cards. The cards could not have been more accurate had I deliberately set it up. The angels proved once again that they are with us and around us simply waiting for us to ask them for help.
It was a great evening and it was lovely to learn a little more about how someone else believes.
Again just another thing re-inforcing the direction of my writing.
In love and light.
When asked what I believe in, I had to admit some of what I believe is not what is taught in the mainstream, and may offend a few people. However we discussed things like faith, intuition, angels etc.
I have a great affinity with angels and use their guidance regularly, I do this using angel cards. These are used more as a prompt for me to give you assistance. The reason for this is obvious, I do not have enough faith in myself, and it was this message that I got from my friends, they too struggle with what is considered correct in religion. I brought out my cards and had I transfer his energy into the cards, touching them shuffling them etc, then I said that I believe we are all intuitive and have learned to ignore or discount those "gut" feelings. I got him to put out three cards. The cards could not have been more accurate had I deliberately set it up. The angels proved once again that they are with us and around us simply waiting for us to ask them for help.
It was a great evening and it was lovely to learn a little more about how someone else believes.
Again just another thing re-inforcing the direction of my writing.
In love and light.
Saturday, 19 February 2011
Day 19 Month 2 - Transendentalism
Transendentalism.
(Wiki Answers - 19 February 2011) " To Transcendent means to rise above the self, the ego & the mind to higher states of consciousness. Transcendentalism isnt a religion in itself but a logical & rational ideal that can be applied to religion itself. It seems to be a mix of literature, religion, culture and philosophy. Its main philosophy emphasizing the intuitive and spiritual above the material."
I have spent a lot of time reading and writing this week. The above is the most profound thing I have ever read. One of the main authors of Transendentalism is Ralph Waldo Emerson, now I have read quite a bit of his work, but had no idea that there was a name for his typpe of philisophy. On Thursday I sat in the library and usually my interest is in the spiritual. I was intuitively drawn to the philosophy section, ran my hands over a number of titles and simply "plucked" a book off the shelf.
I took it back to the little table I was working on and opened it without thought for what I was looking for. Scanning the text there were words like - Intuition and Metaphysical. I stopped, went back to the top of the page and read it slowly. It was a small introduction to Ralph Waldo Emerson and his philosophy. What a breakthrough in my research. I now have an exact direction in which to point my writing. I am sure that what I believe in is a mixture of many things and I there is a lot still to learn, but the fact that thousands of men have been feeling lost and finding direction in a similar manner to myself now give me even more hope that I can assist someone else, who can enjoy a sense of relief in knowing that others have overcome the same guilt over going against the normal teachings of todays society.
In love and light.
(Wiki Answers - 19 February 2011) " To Transcendent means to rise above the self, the ego & the mind to higher states of consciousness. Transcendentalism isnt a religion in itself but a logical & rational ideal that can be applied to religion itself. It seems to be a mix of literature, religion, culture and philosophy. Its main philosophy emphasizing the intuitive and spiritual above the material."
I have spent a lot of time reading and writing this week. The above is the most profound thing I have ever read. One of the main authors of Transendentalism is Ralph Waldo Emerson, now I have read quite a bit of his work, but had no idea that there was a name for his typpe of philisophy. On Thursday I sat in the library and usually my interest is in the spiritual. I was intuitively drawn to the philosophy section, ran my hands over a number of titles and simply "plucked" a book off the shelf.
I took it back to the little table I was working on and opened it without thought for what I was looking for. Scanning the text there were words like - Intuition and Metaphysical. I stopped, went back to the top of the page and read it slowly. It was a small introduction to Ralph Waldo Emerson and his philosophy. What a breakthrough in my research. I now have an exact direction in which to point my writing. I am sure that what I believe in is a mixture of many things and I there is a lot still to learn, but the fact that thousands of men have been feeling lost and finding direction in a similar manner to myself now give me even more hope that I can assist someone else, who can enjoy a sense of relief in knowing that others have overcome the same guilt over going against the normal teachings of todays society.
In love and light.
Wednesday, 16 February 2011
Day16 Month 2 - Super Citizens
Every year for the 2 weeks before February half term,the school the kids attend does a "focus fortnight". The first year K was there the theme for the 2 weeks was Fitness. Last year the theme was Drama and Dance and this year it's "super Citizens".
Very apt since we are fairly newly sworn in as citizens of this fabulous country. Anyway the kids have had to help me with chores and they have had various visitors who are super citizens, the vets, a doctor, plumbers etc, etc. Today they had the local Beavers scout master in and the kids could wear their Beaver/ Scout/ rainbows/ guides uniforms. The reason I mention this is because regardless of the weather which let's face it is usually lousy, the Scout Master wears shorts. We have yet to actually see him in a pair of trousers with long legs. Before Christmas we went to Paulton's Park (for those of you abroad this is an amusement park geared pretty for children under 7 years and although they have some amazing rides for grown ups the bulk of the attractions are for the smaller ones), December was the coldest it has been here in something like 15 years and yes Beaver scout master was wearing his shorts.
If he wore long socks his uniform would look like those hideous safari suits that were all the rage in SA in the seventies, and still the preferred method of dress for most Free State farmers (or is Mpumalanga farmers).
Anyway just thought I'd share this amusing little bit of information and say that even without a card to prove to their teachers - my children are super citizens, and I love them more every day.
In love and light.
Very apt since we are fairly newly sworn in as citizens of this fabulous country. Anyway the kids have had to help me with chores and they have had various visitors who are super citizens, the vets, a doctor, plumbers etc, etc. Today they had the local Beavers scout master in and the kids could wear their Beaver/ Scout/ rainbows/ guides uniforms. The reason I mention this is because regardless of the weather which let's face it is usually lousy, the Scout Master wears shorts. We have yet to actually see him in a pair of trousers with long legs. Before Christmas we went to Paulton's Park (for those of you abroad this is an amusement park geared pretty for children under 7 years and although they have some amazing rides for grown ups the bulk of the attractions are for the smaller ones), December was the coldest it has been here in something like 15 years and yes Beaver scout master was wearing his shorts.
If he wore long socks his uniform would look like those hideous safari suits that were all the rage in SA in the seventies, and still the preferred method of dress for most Free State farmers (or is Mpumalanga farmers).
Anyway just thought I'd share this amusing little bit of information and say that even without a card to prove to their teachers - my children are super citizens, and I love them more every day.
In love and light.
Tuesday, 15 February 2011
Day15 Month 2
Well I know I've been quiet for a little while, but I have been reading through all my writing and trying to decide what to keep and what to get rid of. I have also spent much of the day resting as prescribed by my Doctor and believe it or not started writing. I went to a coffee shop, with 10 stamps on my loyalty card decided to enjoy a lovely large latte gratis.
Not only did I sit and enjoy a coffee, but I also put pen to paper and began jotting down some more ideas, when I eventually lifted my head from the notebook it was just before 3pm and time to fetch the kids. I did not realise until I looked back that I had written four full pages. In proper sentences with notes to annotate, add, and check information.
I read that writing a book is a full time job, God it would be great if that's all I had to do (I think). It would also be great if 4 pages of written script became 4 pages of typed script, but unfortunatley no. Maybe that's the disheartening thing that keeps me from actually completing a book. Now you'd say "type it straight away". I'd have to say NO! The words seem flow more effortlessly from a pen onto paper than tapping my fingers on a keyboard. It's strange isn't it. The other reason I am going to say NO! is because I can see it in my writing when I've got excited about an idea, yes my writing changes the pressure of the pen adjusts on the page and I can see when an idea is something I am not sure of because the writing on the page itself seems hesitant, lighter than the rest and more spaced out. So I guess it's just about keeping going, reading and researching and writing. ( The 3 R's in my quest for completion.... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!)
In love and light.
Not only did I sit and enjoy a coffee, but I also put pen to paper and began jotting down some more ideas, when I eventually lifted my head from the notebook it was just before 3pm and time to fetch the kids. I did not realise until I looked back that I had written four full pages. In proper sentences with notes to annotate, add, and check information.
I read that writing a book is a full time job, God it would be great if that's all I had to do (I think). It would also be great if 4 pages of written script became 4 pages of typed script, but unfortunatley no. Maybe that's the disheartening thing that keeps me from actually completing a book. Now you'd say "type it straight away". I'd have to say NO! The words seem flow more effortlessly from a pen onto paper than tapping my fingers on a keyboard. It's strange isn't it. The other reason I am going to say NO! is because I can see it in my writing when I've got excited about an idea, yes my writing changes the pressure of the pen adjusts on the page and I can see when an idea is something I am not sure of because the writing on the page itself seems hesitant, lighter than the rest and more spaced out. So I guess it's just about keeping going, reading and researching and writing. ( The 3 R's in my quest for completion.... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!)
In love and light.
Saturday, 12 February 2011
Day 12 Month 2
I have gathered together all my writing and I can't believe some of the crap I've written. I can see exactly how I was feeling and the efforts I've made to stay off medication for depression using positive thinking. I guess - while absolute nonsense sometimes, this in itself is a good thing because I know exactly how I felt and can capitalise on it for my writing. I have been given the next week off work due to my chest and think I'll use this time alone (at least while the kids are at school) to concentrate on writing something really special. On days when I feel this blog is particularly good I'm also going to post it in the comments Hay House, this is a publishing company that publishes self help books.
Louise Hay the founder of this company cured herself from cancer, and overcame abuse over most of her life. I love reading her books and if nothing else get yourself "You can heal your life". I think it was this book and "The power of positive thinking" that got me interested in and opened my eyes to the need there is for people who want to be better, to go to someone else or see something through someone elses eyes.
Just my thought for today.
In love and light
Louise Hay the founder of this company cured herself from cancer, and overcame abuse over most of her life. I love reading her books and if nothing else get yourself "You can heal your life". I think it was this book and "The power of positive thinking" that got me interested in and opened my eyes to the need there is for people who want to be better, to go to someone else or see something through someone elses eyes.
Just my thought for today.
In love and light
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