It's difficult sometimes to find something to say without sort of resorting to a long list of what we did step by step for the day, but I suppose whether we know it or not we are ultimately enlightened a little bit every day. The problem though is that we don't usually realise that we have to some degree been enlightened. I had very vibrant dreams last night, not scary but kind of trippy, I woke up even more tired then when I went to bed.
These dreams are my sub-concious trying to come to terms with something specific, and since they centred around our trip to SA, I suppose my psyche is trying to reconcile the fact that maybe, I won't want to come back. Second to loosing J this move has been horribly hard. I know Rob misses his friends, but his family is here, so he has absolutely no clue how I feel at leaving everyone I love and care for (outside of our foursome) 11000 miles away.
This leaves me with a huge problem, because Rob will never come back, and my children are essentially British, and small town British not cosmopolitan British. So all things considered I guess I'll be coming back..... home?
In love and light.
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