Day31 - Smoke on the water...

Well it's Monday again and it's already almost over, where does the time go? Anyway I had my first official guitar lesson with K today. Yesterday K wanted to quit and I was quite upset about that. I did guitar when I was younger but no-one ever pushed me to finish anything, so I decided I would have lessons with K and he would practice. The last two weeks we managed to practise once and that was like trying to move an ass that has decided it just doesn't want to go anywhere.
But this evening the lesson went so well and it appealed to the performer in my son and he had a marvelous time upstaging me, I had fun too because in case you don't know already I am rather competitive by nature. The difference between K and I is that I no longer get frustrated when I loose. This is a huge lesson he has to learn. My hope though is that he will learn that you can't just give up when all you need is a little committment and hard work. I had for many years (and probably still do) have a habit of not finishing anything I start. I do not want my son to create for himself a habit of quitting when times get tough. I want him to be the type of character that people know they can rely on.
I know that as a parent I am particularly tough on both my children, yet both are performing at the top of their grades. C is so determined in what ever she does, ballet, tap dancing, she works much harder at all her school work and even though she is only 6 she has never once told me she CAN'T. She will give it a go with all her heart and soul. This doesn't mean that she doesn't have the odd strop every now and then but not half as many as K. I am a very proud mother and my children know that both Rob and I are there for them, but I would ideally like my children growing up with a sense of conviction and honour. Rob shows conviction and honour in everything he does and commits himself to. I have been on a journey the last 7 years, a journey that has taught me that I have huge chips on my shoulders and these are being systematically removed - I hope- but I will hopefully not allow these chips to build on the shoulders of my children. I will teach them the importance of the truth and respect in everything they do and hopefully they will never have to look in the mirror and not like what they see.

In love and light