Hope is the dream of the waking man.
French Proverb
I came across this quote today and it reminded me of something, I have often written about the words in Corinthians 13, sorry my Bible is downstairs and I don't feel like going to find it, that say something like the 3 most important things are faith, hope and love, the greatest of these is love.
I say NO the greatest of these is not love, yes love is important but I personally do not believe that it is the greatest of the three. In my opinion, the greatest of these is HOPE. Man can live without faith (and many do), man can live without love and many do), man cannot live without HOPE, hope of faith at some point, hope of love at least once in a lifetime, hope for the perfect job. Hope gives you something to hold onto. Hope makes life worth living. People who suffer from depression have lost hope, many people who take their own lives have in my opinion lost HOPE. When dealing with the tragedy of losing our baby, I had love, I had faith and it was the loss of hope which caused the greatest feeling of nothingness that encompassed my life. It was the hope of seeing our baby grow, it was the hope of celebrating his first Christmas, it was the hope of seeing him graduate from university. It was the hope of seeing him married with children and it was this loss of hope that caused me to want to die.
Hope is the greatest of all and I wish that you all have faith (in something), feel love (for someone) but most importantly I wish you HOPE, because hope keeps everything else in balance.
In love and light
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Thursday, 9 June 2011
Wednesday, 8 June 2011
Day8 Month6 - Returning to the original reason for this blog
Good Evening
I have decided to return to the original reason for starting this blog, I believe that we need to be motivated everyday and from experience I know that a little bit of motivation goes along way. It's just easy I suppose to fall into a rut and write just for the sake of getting something out there. Today I return to the roots of this blog. So here goes...
"Believe with all of your heart that you will do what you were made to do.
Orison Swett Marden."
Looking through some quotes today, I found this one particularly moving. Moving because it reminded me of my Auntie Be, a fantastically wonderful women who is always remembered with much love. Auntie Be always used to say that "what is for you will never pass you by". Reflecting on the recent events of my working life, I suppose it gives me some hope that there must be something better waiting for me. Looking at the situation from a positive angle rather than a negative one means that I now have the opportunity to look for something better. I have applied for a couple of jobs and the hours are all part-time but hopefully because I now have a school years worth of experience I can earn a bit more. I am also in the position to be choosy about the next job I take. Rob takes good care of us so all the major bills are paid by him, and I have been offered my job back at the old folks home, so it's not like I won't be earning anything and it's not like we'll have to apply for benefits or loose our house, these are things mind you that other families are suffering with. It is also always important to be grateful for the things we have in life, a very BIG thing I had forgotten until I just typed these words. The bible somewhere says "be grateful everyday" and A Course in Miracles tells us that "God has given us everything we need".
When all is said and done I guess my ego has been bruised by being made redundant, and how ironic that I am the first person to dismiss the ego. I am NOT a victim, I used to be a victim but learning to be grateful for what I have and drawing strength in the knowledge that it could be worse and there are always others worse off than myself. Aristotle said "we are what we repeatedly do" he also said that "excellence is a habit", well so then is strength, being truly grateful, and knowing that it's really not personal, gives me the strength then to take this opportunity and use it to MY best advantage.
In love and light
I have decided to return to the original reason for starting this blog, I believe that we need to be motivated everyday and from experience I know that a little bit of motivation goes along way. It's just easy I suppose to fall into a rut and write just for the sake of getting something out there. Today I return to the roots of this blog. So here goes...
"Believe with all of your heart that you will do what you were made to do.
Orison Swett Marden."
Looking through some quotes today, I found this one particularly moving. Moving because it reminded me of my Auntie Be, a fantastically wonderful women who is always remembered with much love. Auntie Be always used to say that "what is for you will never pass you by". Reflecting on the recent events of my working life, I suppose it gives me some hope that there must be something better waiting for me. Looking at the situation from a positive angle rather than a negative one means that I now have the opportunity to look for something better. I have applied for a couple of jobs and the hours are all part-time but hopefully because I now have a school years worth of experience I can earn a bit more. I am also in the position to be choosy about the next job I take. Rob takes good care of us so all the major bills are paid by him, and I have been offered my job back at the old folks home, so it's not like I won't be earning anything and it's not like we'll have to apply for benefits or loose our house, these are things mind you that other families are suffering with. It is also always important to be grateful for the things we have in life, a very BIG thing I had forgotten until I just typed these words. The bible somewhere says "be grateful everyday" and A Course in Miracles tells us that "God has given us everything we need".
When all is said and done I guess my ego has been bruised by being made redundant, and how ironic that I am the first person to dismiss the ego. I am NOT a victim, I used to be a victim but learning to be grateful for what I have and drawing strength in the knowledge that it could be worse and there are always others worse off than myself. Aristotle said "we are what we repeatedly do" he also said that "excellence is a habit", well so then is strength, being truly grateful, and knowing that it's really not personal, gives me the strength then to take this opportunity and use it to MY best advantage.
In love and light
Thursday, 10 February 2011
Day 10 Month 2 - What I need
I have had a rather down day, today I took the day off work and went to see the Doctor, this is not a new thing because since before Christmas I have been coughing. I had one bout of bronchitas and then another and after x-rays and sputum checks - which were normal - I have still been coughing, only now, I have no sense of smell and my ears hurt. The doctor today has told me that I have YET another bout of bronchitas and have been prescribed a third batch of anti-biotics.
So I asked the doctor am I feeling down and unable to cope because of the infection or is the infection not healing because I am feeling down and unable to cope. Honestly, they don't know and we will have to see how I feel after this batch of anti-biotics.
However feeling down is not something new to me and when I am down I seem to have remarkable moments of clarity, especially since I like to write things down. I have on this desk some writing, I have in my bag a book which periodically get's pulled out and scribbled in and in the car I have two books which have been written in, in times when I have simply had nothing better to do. I looked at a page that I wrote a while ago (no date on my writing) and I must have been reading one or other self help book at the time but this was written well before I read Paul McKenna. So let me share a snippet with you. Only because I usually feel down when the victim part of my ego rears it's ugly head and being in the imortal words of that crazy german songstress from Blazing Saddles "Tired of being so tired.".
What do I need to know right now to make my life and myself perfect?
This is a huge question and the answer is so complex that it's probably going to take me forever to answer it but here goes.
Wow, this really making me think long and hard because the first thing I did was ask myself what do I already know?
I am fairly well educated, and very well read, so I would consider myself quite intelligent, but there have been lots of successful people who are really not well educated nor well read, so what did they do in their lives to achieve success or at least what I feel is their achievement of success?
These days every life coach and inspirational speaker is saying that you can do, be or have everything you want in life. It seems then like a fair assumption that if I have everything I want, everything I want to do, have and be must be the answer to my initial question.
The answer then is not so complex, because then all I need to know is what do I want to do? What do I want to be? What do I want to have? So once I have all this information, I should be on my way to perfection. In simpler terms I am going to have to make a list, of things I want to do, be and have, and in true life coach style I am going to call it a goals list and not a wish list.
Join us again tomorrow for a gripping installment
In love and light.
So I asked the doctor am I feeling down and unable to cope because of the infection or is the infection not healing because I am feeling down and unable to cope. Honestly, they don't know and we will have to see how I feel after this batch of anti-biotics.
However feeling down is not something new to me and when I am down I seem to have remarkable moments of clarity, especially since I like to write things down. I have on this desk some writing, I have in my bag a book which periodically get's pulled out and scribbled in and in the car I have two books which have been written in, in times when I have simply had nothing better to do. I looked at a page that I wrote a while ago (no date on my writing) and I must have been reading one or other self help book at the time but this was written well before I read Paul McKenna. So let me share a snippet with you. Only because I usually feel down when the victim part of my ego rears it's ugly head and being in the imortal words of that crazy german songstress from Blazing Saddles "Tired of being so tired.".
What do I need to know right now to make my life and myself perfect?
This is a huge question and the answer is so complex that it's probably going to take me forever to answer it but here goes.
Wow, this really making me think long and hard because the first thing I did was ask myself what do I already know?
I am fairly well educated, and very well read, so I would consider myself quite intelligent, but there have been lots of successful people who are really not well educated nor well read, so what did they do in their lives to achieve success or at least what I feel is their achievement of success?
These days every life coach and inspirational speaker is saying that you can do, be or have everything you want in life. It seems then like a fair assumption that if I have everything I want, everything I want to do, have and be must be the answer to my initial question.
The answer then is not so complex, because then all I need to know is what do I want to do? What do I want to be? What do I want to have? So once I have all this information, I should be on my way to perfection. In simpler terms I am going to have to make a list, of things I want to do, be and have, and in true life coach style I am going to call it a goals list and not a wish list.
Join us again tomorrow for a gripping installment
In love and light.
Monday, 15 November 2010
Death and Taxes
Well it's been a while since I decided to share my views with anyone but myself, as picking up a pen and scribbling down pages and pages at a time seems a lot easier than sitting here at this computer.
I have completed the training I chatted about earlier and have a really great term time job. BUT! I have also recently read Paul McKenna's Change your life in 7 days and must admit that while it's nothing I have not read elsewhere before, I did the exercises and listened to the CD and I rediscovered something about myself... I am not passionate about anything!
The old slogan that if you do something you love, you'll never really work is true - but what if - LIKE ME - there is nothing that sufficiently inspires you to greatness. I have made a list of the things that matter in my life and while they all revolve around my family and friends, there is nothing that I am passionate about. Having said that though, there is lots that I love, but nothing that I would consider myself passionate about. I love my children and thought that doing something in childcare would fill the hole. It hasn't! I then thought that working with special needs children would fill the hole and it hasn't, that doesn't mean however that I am sorry I work with special needs children, quite the contrary as I am amazed and inspired everyday by their perseverance and determination to do things you and I may take for granted. But I do sometimes feel that there is something missing.
I think the problem is that I really want to make a difference and sometimes it seems that I am just plodding along day to day and it's hard to make a difference just plodding.
I don't know if I have mentioned this before but I am a clairsentient, this means that I am very perceptive and intuitively know what people are feeling. I am also considerably empathetic, so I consulted my Angel Cards (not condoned by the church attend) for guidance as to my life purpose. The guidance I have been given is to take back my power, work with children or animals and definitely get closer to nature. Incidentally this was almost the same message I received when trying to decide whether to embark on my childcare training.
I have an idea that I could be an author, I enjoy writing and have loads and loads of stuff I have written, but am I passionate about the idea? No, would I sacrifice time and effort on writing a book? NO and I have 2 attempts on this computer right now to prove it.
I also have an idea that I would like to do bereavement counciling as I have worked in an old folks home where palliative care was given, I am also the parent of a deceased child and so could totally sympathise with other parents, my problem here is not whether I am prepared to sacrifice a year of my life (or 8 months at a push) to complete a course but where am I going to find the money for the course? And so back to square 1 because I am not going to sacrifice the small amount of time I have with my children to WORK another job to pay for a course that's going to take up a huge amount of time.
What I am really trying to say is.... "I wish everything was as certain as Death and Taxes."
I have completed the training I chatted about earlier and have a really great term time job. BUT! I have also recently read Paul McKenna's Change your life in 7 days and must admit that while it's nothing I have not read elsewhere before, I did the exercises and listened to the CD and I rediscovered something about myself... I am not passionate about anything!
The old slogan that if you do something you love, you'll never really work is true - but what if - LIKE ME - there is nothing that sufficiently inspires you to greatness. I have made a list of the things that matter in my life and while they all revolve around my family and friends, there is nothing that I am passionate about. Having said that though, there is lots that I love, but nothing that I would consider myself passionate about. I love my children and thought that doing something in childcare would fill the hole. It hasn't! I then thought that working with special needs children would fill the hole and it hasn't, that doesn't mean however that I am sorry I work with special needs children, quite the contrary as I am amazed and inspired everyday by their perseverance and determination to do things you and I may take for granted. But I do sometimes feel that there is something missing.
I think the problem is that I really want to make a difference and sometimes it seems that I am just plodding along day to day and it's hard to make a difference just plodding.
I don't know if I have mentioned this before but I am a clairsentient, this means that I am very perceptive and intuitively know what people are feeling. I am also considerably empathetic, so I consulted my Angel Cards (not condoned by the church attend) for guidance as to my life purpose. The guidance I have been given is to take back my power, work with children or animals and definitely get closer to nature. Incidentally this was almost the same message I received when trying to decide whether to embark on my childcare training.
I have an idea that I could be an author, I enjoy writing and have loads and loads of stuff I have written, but am I passionate about the idea? No, would I sacrifice time and effort on writing a book? NO and I have 2 attempts on this computer right now to prove it.
I also have an idea that I would like to do bereavement counciling as I have worked in an old folks home where palliative care was given, I am also the parent of a deceased child and so could totally sympathise with other parents, my problem here is not whether I am prepared to sacrifice a year of my life (or 8 months at a push) to complete a course but where am I going to find the money for the course? And so back to square 1 because I am not going to sacrifice the small amount of time I have with my children to WORK another job to pay for a course that's going to take up a huge amount of time.
What I am really trying to say is.... "I wish everything was as certain as Death and Taxes."
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