Day 13 Month 6 Let's astound ourselves

If we did all the things we are capable of, we would literally astound ourselves. Thomas Edison

Isn't this quote amazing? It feeds back into the thinking that we can do, be and have everything we want. It's important to remember that we do have everything we need and be grateful for it, but everything we want can be a little different.
We need to first of all know that we are deserving of everything we want, because if we cannot convince ourselves that we deserve all the good things in life we will have doubts and those doubts (brought on by the ego) will prevent us from imagining and creating our perfect world.
So three major laws to follow when creating your perfect life.
1. Be grateful for what you have
2. Let the ego go, know that you are deserving of it all
3. Believe that it is all yours to have.

In love and light

Day 12 Month 6 - I believe in Angels

All I have seen teaches me to trust the Creator for all I have not seen. -- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Those of you who know me will know 3 things.
1. I believe in Angels
2. I am amazed that Ralph Waldo Emerson wrote (quite a while ago) beliefs that are not confined to mainstream religion and yet touch many of the beliefs that I have.
3. You know my beliefs on the Creator.

So with those three things in mind let me tell you what this quote means to me...it means that if we can see and appreciate the world around us, then imagine what is laying beneath this magnificent surface.
A lot of new age writing touches on the unseen, imagining or visualising your life as you want it to be. I have tried to quite my mind enough to visualise my perfect life into reality, you all know how that turned out. But this evenings quote is actually saying to me, WOW just look at what we DO have around us right now, rain bringing life back into dehydrated trees, grass and flowers. Family who love us, and whom we love. Friends, who care and help because they want to without any repayment. The ability to help those friends because we can and because we want to without any repayment. A roof over our heads, jobs to go to. Things to see, places to go. So let us just reflect a moment on what the Creator (yourself) has brought into your life and vow today to change the negative, and be truly appreciative for the positive for by refelcting on the positive we are bringing more positive into our lives. By ignoring the negative we are then eliminating it from our lives.

In love and light

Day 9 Month 6 - Faith, Hope and Love

Hope is the dream of the waking man.
French Proverb

I came across this quote today and it reminded me of something, I have often written about the words in Corinthians 13, sorry my Bible is downstairs and I don't feel like going to find it, that say something like the 3 most important things are faith, hope and love, the greatest of these is love.
I say NO the greatest of these is not love, yes love is important but I personally do not believe that it is the greatest of the three. In my opinion, the greatest of these is HOPE. Man can live without faith (and many do), man can live without love  and many do), man cannot live without HOPE, hope of faith at some point, hope of love at least once in a lifetime, hope for the perfect job. Hope gives you something to hold onto. Hope makes life worth living. People who suffer from depression have lost hope, many people who take their own lives have in my opinion lost HOPE. When dealing with the tragedy of losing our baby, I had love, I had faith and it was the loss of hope which caused the greatest feeling of nothingness that encompassed my life. It was the hope of seeing our baby grow, it was the hope of celebrating his first Christmas, it was the hope of seeing him graduate from university. It was the hope of seeing him married with children and it was this loss of hope that caused me to want to die.
Hope is the greatest of all and I wish that you all have faith (in something), feel love (for someone) but most importantly I wish you HOPE, because hope keeps everything else in balance.
In love and light

Day8 Month6 - Returning to the original reason for this blog

Good Evening
I have decided to return to the original reason for starting this blog, I believe that we need to be motivated everyday and from experience I know that a little bit of motivation goes along way. It's just easy I suppose to fall into a rut and write just for the sake of getting something out there. Today I return to the roots of this blog. So here goes...

"Believe with all of your heart that you will do what you were made to do.
Orison Swett Marden."

Looking through some quotes today, I found this one particularly moving. Moving because it reminded me of my Auntie Be, a fantastically wonderful women who is always remembered with much love. Auntie Be always used to say that "what is for you will never pass you by". Reflecting on the recent events of my working life, I suppose it gives me some hope that there must be something better waiting for me. Looking at the situation from a positive angle rather than a negative one means that I now have the opportunity to look for something better. I have applied for a couple of jobs and the hours are all part-time but hopefully because I now have a school years worth of experience I can earn a bit more. I am also in the position to be choosy about the next job I take. Rob takes good care of us so all the major bills are paid by him, and I have been offered my job back at the old folks home, so it's not like I won't be earning anything and it's not like we'll have to apply for benefits or loose our house, these are things mind you that other families are suffering with. It is also always important to be grateful for the things we have in life, a very BIG thing I had forgotten until I just typed these words. The bible somewhere says "be grateful everyday" and A Course in Miracles tells us that "God has given us everything we need".
When all is said and done I guess my ego has been bruised by being made redundant, and how ironic that I am the first person to dismiss the ego. I am NOT a victim, I used to be a victim but learning to be grateful for what I have and drawing strength in the knowledge that it could be worse and there are always others worse off than myself. Aristotle said "we are what we repeatedly do" he also said that "excellence is a habit", well so then is strength, being truly grateful, and knowing that it's really not personal, gives me the strength then to take this opportunity and use it to MY best advantage.
In love and light

Day3 Month6 - A new beginning

Wow, it has been a while since I've felt inspired enough to write, but here are my thoughts for today. As you all probably know after 9 years of searching for somthing to be fulfilling to me on the job front I have been made redundant from a job I actually do love. It's not a shock I was on an annual contract and with everyone needing to make cuts I knew it would be last in first out, because regardless of performance, redundancy packages cost money, I simply walk out the door. So I have been job hunting obviously for something similar in the hope of replicating the joy I feel currently. It's a hell of a lot harder than you'd think! So the applications are done and theyll be posted off today along with the well worded cover letter. Then comes the waiting, the waiting is the hardest part because I have no control over how long I have to wait, so that says something about my need to always be in control of a situation and now you see why being made redundant is so hard for me to bear and while everyone says it's not personal. How can anyone NOT take it personally when you are doing a good job and it's still not enough to keep you in emplyment? They've said that if something else opens up I can keep my job, yes it's good to know that I was doing a good enough job that they would want me back, and I've been offered my old job back at the nursing which was to a certain extent fulfilling but while you can assist an elderly person with dimentia today, you need to do it again tomorrow, and again the next day, while assisting a child today means that they have that input for the rest of their lives and hopefully somehow someway you have enriched that childs life. And so I'm going to raise a toast today to new beginnings because whether I like it or not I have to HAVE to have one. CHEERS!!
In love and light

Day14 Month5 - Feeling Good

I was feeling a little down last night because I have to work this weekend and while waiting for my show to come on (Criminal Minds) I was channel surfing and came across Dirty Dancing, I'd missed the beginning and picked up where Johnny starts teaching Baby to dance for the show at the other hotel. I ended up missing Crimal Minds and watching to the end. I think I had a silly smile on my face because I remember watching Dirty Dancing for the 1st time at the Top Star Drive in and I am not exactly certain but I was either 17 or 18 so we are talking 1987/88. I can honsestly say that re-watching this one movie has highlighted how important movies, music and tv have become in making us as a species. In times of economic down-turn, the entertainment industry is very seldom hit but a recession, this was true during the great depression when unemplyed people would fill cinemas and watch movies, so what's the attraction?
I can say it's about escape-ism! I love watching movies that are far out. Give me Aliens, give me Zombies, give me Vampires, give me chick-flicks it's about forgetting your own problems and feeling great about something, anything. May the movie business go from strength to strength and may I never tire of watching the classics like Dirty Dancing.
Thank-you Patrick Swayze! Rest in peace knowing you brought joy to millions, and I am pleased to be one of them.
In love and light.

Month 5 Day 5 - The day it all began

Well it's 9 years today since we lost our Jonathan, I have shed a few tears and I have mentioned it to the kids and Robs has had a very busy day, so we haven't really had time to wallow in the tragedy of it all. It's on days like this that you begin to understand what being grateful is all about. I often say that I am grateful and then still feel like something is missing or am unable to feel content with my life. Is this because our first born is not here in the flesh with us? I don't think so, if I'm totally honest. I have 2 of the most beautiful children here with me and there is nothing better that going to wake them up and getting a big smile and a hug. It's only a few hours between bedtime and wake up time but when my son sees me he smiles the most joy- giving smile in the world and today was no different.
This morning after breakfast both my babies took their designated places on my lap and although it would have been VERY nice to have to squash in another one, I believe I felt truely grateful for the very FIRST time. Why? I am loved, and yes often I feel like I am maybe a little too tough and the words coming out my mouth are loud and blunt, but the kids don't hold it against me, they are able to smile and hug me like they haven't seen me for years. All I can say today is that although it would have been better to have all three alive and well and smiling up at me through sleepy eyes, I am grateful the two I've got are full of love and realise how much I really do love them and am grateful for them being here with me on this plane.
To my spirit child, I love you and will see you when it's my time, I know that for you the time is like a snap of my fingers, but as I've said unfortunately I have to wait the rest of my life.
In love and light (and grateful peace).